i think my biggest mistake was thinking that everyone was less complicated than they really were. i couldn’t wrap my thoughts around the concept that other people sometimes over-analyzed every little detail… and how one off or unmade reaction, from me, could confuse their happiness.

i wasn’t intentionally playing games, i really wasn’t.  i just don’t think i fully realized the amount of reassurance you needed to keep your world from crumbling. 

and it’s not that i was unable to treat you the way you deserved. i just, well…. i just over-analyzed it all, too. i thought i was tiptoeing on ice when i was really on sturdy, soft, welcoming land.

and for all of this, all of this confusion that has no source but that i’ll probably end up blaming on myself:
i’m sorry. i truly am

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