family

I used to be the type of person that would make remarks such as “if we weren’t related, we wouldn’t be friends”, in regards to certain family members.

but my once self-righteous outlook has been swayed by recent realizations; i’m genetically attached to these people. even if i wanted to, i can’t ever fully escape the connection i have with them.

so maybe i should make the best of it. maybe i should put in more effort.

i mean, it even makes me tear up when i think about how excited my mother was when i called her just to say hello (which is something i hardly ever do). she was genuinely surprised that i wasn’t asking for anything…. and that’s a little alarming on my end. i don’t want anyone, especially my parents, to think that i only enjoy our relationship because of the tangible benefits. 

i hope that my children sincerely enjoy my presence… and although i am easily annoyed with my family, i think i’ll do my best to make sure they dont know that.
 
after all, they’re a key ingredient in my creation

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